Its rough#
Its hard being so helpless. I can watch from Florida and listen to her break down more and more. My mom is in a pretty shitty position. I wish I had the money to do something. I wish I could get her to listen to me or my sister, or any real person. The next few months are going to be very bad because she’s decided that she will move out and Elon is going to pick her up. None of these things are really going to happen. She’s convinced that giving out her debt card and all her money, she’s going to get back a bunch of money. Its a weird mix of romance scam and trying to get money back from the scams she’s already participated in, and she believes the scammers. You’ll get your money back, just give me all the rest of your money. I hate this person. This new thing that she’s become. Defending the people robbing her and treating the people that care about her as an obstacle. I still want to help her. I want to make it so I don’t worry about her. This would be easy if she were honest or reliable, but shes not. She’s manipulative and lies about everything. Her brain is breaking down and she’s trying to defend the non-logic decisions she’s making to preserve some duct-tape, carbon copy of pride. All of it is fake. If I could just convince her that being honest will get things 50% of the way there, and then the other 50% is just dont talk to these people. Then she would be ok. I feel like its a small behavior change, but its not. That is trying to move a mountain in this situation.
It makes me think about how broken was she before? She’s always been kind of shitty and at times she can be kind and sweet. Her worldview is so incredibly wrong though, its impossible that it wasnt jacked up before.
This is an impossible situation though. She will not listen to anyone. She only wants to put her hope and trust into the people taking advantage of her. I have to let that be. She’s going to be “ok” no matter what happens. Unfortuantely, Texas law makes it impossible to take control of her assets, but right now she’s given pretty much everything away to scammers. There is nothing left. She sold her card, all her jewelry, everything, to give away. She doesn’t understand anything. The problem is me. I let this bother me. I need to focus on myself. Find a job and if I’m really lucky I may be able to help. Instead of waste away like a big depressed mess.