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I can’t use logic for this

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Unfortunately, there’s no way I can reason my mom out of her position. That is something proven not to work. She is 100% emotions and what she feels determines what is true. So Elon is a constant. In the morning, not matter what happened the day before, we have a new slate. Elon is 100% real. At the end of this month, she said she’s moving out of her apartment and Elon is going to take her to her new residence. I can’t try and stop her. She needs to fall flat. I want to convince her otherwise, but then I’m part of the problem again. The reason Elon hasn’t picked her up ALL THE OTHER TIMES, is that she hasn’t risked enough. She hasn’t risked being put on the street. She’s only given up all her money, and then taken out more money she doesnt have and then given that away too. Fuck. I fucking hate people. It’s so disgusting.

I have to call her at least one and ask her to not stop paying rent and to redo her lease. She things she’s going to manipulate and guilt the scammers into doing what she wants, and it just does not work like that.

It’s so sad. I remember the first time she told me she believed she was in a relationship with Elon. It was like the world shifted. I understood her mind was gone. Its weird. She’s alive but it’s kind of like she’s not. It’s some strange new thing, almost a new person, the old person is there sometimes. There was a time for months, I was begging her to do a mental decline test at the doctors. She came home one day and was depressed because she had done it. She wanted to protest and do it again. She said if she was ready she would do better. It’s not that kind of test though. So she was depressed for about 2 weeks, it seemed she realized she was scammed then. But one day, she was just happy and back on the Elon train. She hid it, but it’s what happened. So she hides things about Elon, will lie to protect scammers and her pride, and when she feels like she’s scammed, she won’t talk about it because she hides all her low and depressive feelings and thoughts. Her solution is to just pretend like its not there and push it down. Shit on everyone around her to make her feel better about her situation.

I’ve been playing around with Odin for a bit and I haven’t touched Go in a long time. I don’t know what I’m doing but I should probably… I don’t know whats hireable anymore actually. Vibe coding? So I’m making a terminal in Odin through codecrafters. What am I doing with my life? Anyways, Odin feels very similar to Go right now. I remember months ago I was doing this project and the month ended and the project was behind a paywall. Its months later and its free again. I open the project up and it doesnt work. I update Odin and have to fix a bunch of things and it feels so much more similar to Go than before. I like it. Maybe make a game with this? Thats what it’s for right? Someone hire me.

Ok a game. What are we making. I love comic books. I love fantasay and sci-fi and storytelling. Space operas. I suppose in times like this when nothing feels important I need to create something that’s important. I need to cook and clean and water the plants so they don’t die. Make sure my Aunt has some good stuff to eat and make sure the house is clean since she can’t move very well. Maybe I make a game about that. Making food, cleaning up after cats/people, feeding plants, feeding people, feeding cats. Feeding and cleaning? Sometimes neighbors need help. Sometimes you get a call and your mom is about to do something crazy. Some kind of incremental roguelike with deep lore if you pay attention/read all the stuff. It’s an idea. so that’s a 3d game. I like quake2 movement (strafe jumping) so I guess include that for fun? No it’s just single player its not important.